What I Remember

You may want to read “Why It is uglyreal…” before you read this post, and then decide if you want to continue.  ____________________________________________________________________________________________ Window in the door to the left of my bench at the court. Susan’s face. Door opening. Kim Henderson beside Susan. The chair underneath me. My legs underneath the bench. My hands … Continue reading

I Am Your Daughter

Before you go any further, if you haven’t, please go back and read the “Why It Is Uglyreal…” on the home page. Then decide if you want to continue, because this post is as uglyreal as it gets.  ____________________________________________________________________________________________ When Anna was born, you said to me: “You’ll always be my little girl.” Liar.   … Continue reading

Are You OK?

Are you ok? People ask me this all the time. To answer, sort of, I usually make some kind of noise and shrug my shoulders. It feels so rude. I hate feeling like I’m being rude, because I don’t think it is “ok” to be rude to people–especially to extremely kind, well-intentioned, loving people. Being … Continue reading

Gridiron Golden Hot Air Balloon Dreams

    When Daddy left, he took with him so much more than just his physical self–that steadfast, quirky, impatient, soothing self–as if that wasn’t enough. He took away so much more. He took away my child’s favorite human being on the planet. The damage his leaving did to my own heart is irreparable, but … Continue reading

There Are No Words, Mr. Faulkner

A really long time ago, I read the book As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner. I haven’t read it since that really long time ago. At the time I read it, though, I remember that I was a bit obsessed with death. And at the time I read it, the profoundness of his empty … Continue reading

Tunes ‘Til Two

IF I had full faith that people we love who die give us signs from heaven after they are gone, this story would bring me glorious comfort. I would think it was so perfect, so Daddy…so Daddy and me. I would roll around in it, cover myself with it, drape it over my shoulders and … Continue reading

Camp Makery, Y’all!

I know it has been ages since I’ve posted anything here, but I have begun to write and edit for a new blog started by my uber-talented cousin-in-law, Lauren. The site is called Camp Makery, and you MUST check it out! Lauren has gathered some amazingly talented women from across the world to contribute to … Continue reading

SIMPLIFY: Moving the Leaf

I never make New Year’s resolutions. Ever. I don’t keep them, and I feel like a total failure when I forget that I even made one before January is out. But I did this year, and though I am preparing myself for that familiar feeling once again, I am trying. I really am. This year, … Continue reading